Heavy traffic. In the Philippines setting, its history. People, especially commuters, do stupid things just to get rid of the boredom caused by it. Caught in the middle of Alabang - Bicutan service road area, I started to cut and fold some of the fliers that was given by a flier distributor(?) somewhere in Northgate, Alabang. Origami if you want to call it that way. Out of nowhere, the future started to appear before me. I mean, I was thinking of having a place which I could call "our" own home. Our - including a wife, and perhaps, multiple kids. Then I realized, I never had a long-term relationship. For oh so many years that I've been dreaming of one strong relationship that could last until "til-death-do-us-apart". I could still recall my last, legal relationship... the girl whom I thought...
It was a happy one, the relationship until she messed with her close friend. It broke the bond, the trust that has been binding our relationship for months. It was heartbreaking. The absence of trust led to nowhere, and all the promises were shattered. Blurry. What if I trusted her even though she cheated on our relationship? She suggested a breakup would solve all the problem. It felt like the weight of the whole universe is on my shoulder. That heavy feeling I couldn't simply forget. Tried to call her if we could get back together but it was too late. Tried to beg her. It was useless.
For a year I was living a past life. I became a woman-hater. I became bitter. Not until.
I had this classmate. This chinita helped me in a lot of things: in our subject and also to help me recover from the severely-wounded heart. We had sorta attachment, and I became her "kabit". She was in a 2-year, healthy relationship and still going. I never meant nor had an intention to break their relationship but it happened. We did things like a normal couple do. We spent some happy moments together, hiding. For several times we thought of ending the "illegal" relationship since it gaves us a hard time. We're still friends though.
Today, I am single. Tomorrow. The day after tomorrow. I will be single. But will not be available. Because I am in-love with this girl who has the similar broken feeling I had few years ago. I thought I could help her, motivate her just like what my classmate did but... I don't know. I'm just hoping that someday she'll be able to recover and entertain me. Until that day. For now, I will be staying here, loving you.
One thing for sure: If I will be engaging in a relationship again, it'll be my last and forever. See you soon whoever you are. You!
Written by timothyhastings at 11:15 PM.
happy bday to my guy! he just turned 28 today.
i surprised him by bringing a cake to our workplace and approached him at exactly 12AM with two other friends.. he was all smile and that makes me happy.. he thought that was the only surprised but he didnt know i was saving to give him a surprise party.
when he got home, he was surprised that his old friends and some of his colleagues were there to celebrate his special day. prepared lots of food even if i had no sleep..
when they finally settled to drink. i decided to sleep.. after 2 hours he woke me up.. we talked about our relationship problems followed by...
(HINT HINT) wink***
so sleepy..
Written by liplock at 08:37 PM.
for the last three days.. im feeling sick.. i feel dizzy and feel like vomiting..
and nope.. im not pregnant..
or am i? OMG
Written by liplock at 11:21 PM.
dont u just hate it when people you trust betrayed you? well, i feel like i was just betrayed.. i had this so called "friend" that i became close with when we got pregnant at the same time.. we also has the same experiences with our life (love life).. maybe it was much more complicated for her or i could say she has more problems with her guy than i am.. aside from womanizing, his guy hit him and i guess drinks a lot..
after telling her almost all things ive done and im still doing (ex. setting up person finder on my guy's phone).. i just found out that she spilled almost every info directly to my guy.. they were friends.. i guess my mistake is believing she wont sell me to my guy.. but she did.. my guy and i fought abt the person finder thingy the other day.. he said.. the "friend" thought he knows abt it.. and i thought "that was so stupid to think".. she's just lucky that although i know his guy.. i wont do to her wat she's doing to me.. (although i realy want to, haha)
i guess i should learn not to easily trust people.. ha.. another lesson learned..
Written by liplock at 10:49 PM.
So be it. 
{ mood } ecstatic
Written by timothyhastings at 12:55 AM.
curiousity kills the cat.
Written by liplock at 08:25 PM.
mas madami ko nasusulat pag may problema ko tska malungkot ako.. bkit kaya?
Written by liplock at 09:55 PM.
i think im back to tabulas..
i think im going to be ok..
Written by liplock at 10:32 PM.